SsPlat.

Welcome.
To my blooggggg..

the guy

# Splat
# 18
# Single

loves

# daydreaming.
# driving in the car.
# WoW.
# Staring.

his wishlist

# a good life.
# to forget stuffs better.
# someone.

"Believe that someday, that someone will come and take away the emptiness within."

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

Sigh Holidays fer secondary School has started already..
Who knows what might happen..
anyways it's best that i concentrated more on studying.

It's been over a month ever since that incident happened already
but..
till now...
the feelings are still there..
are the feelings mutual ?
Or is it only me ?

it's just crap to say that guys move on faster.
i don believe that
in my case..

cant time reverse itself ?
things i've said
things i've done.
i wished i've never done..

But den again.
i just don understand how come some guys can really move on so quicky
like 1 mth change 1 gal.
it's like such a casanova.
Wished i was one..

So that i don have to feel the pain
of heart breaking and quarrels and stuff.
there are people that say that i look like a casanova
but if u know me.
i aint one..

i don even contact
or talk to u
or get to see u
wonder how u're getting on on ur daily life..
Sigh.. Such Pain
once again.
is it me only ?
or do u feel it too ?

Anyways Fathers day is coming soon.
i'm not so sure of what to get for my dad though
mom says that he needs a new lap top
but..
i myself cant buy a laptop..
-_-''
Poor me..
WAHAHAH !
wateva. i shall ponder about it....

posted at 8:23 PM

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

damn week so many tests...
not gonna do well in that ET test...
damn subject. sighs.
anyways hope u received the letter with the pict and Archie comic
Hope u had fun !

RWAR RWAR RWAR !!!!
ANGRY !!!
SOO MANY TESTs !!!

posted at 6:27 PM

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Friday, May 19, 2006

New PICT UP on PROFILE.. check it out

damn i'm usin a blog as a art webby !!
weird..

anyways after i improve i'll shift..
heh..

anyways thanks for visiting my Blog !!!
ty ty ty ty ty ty !!!

posted at 9:46 PM

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

CHECK
OUT
MY
NEW
HAND
COMPUTER
DRAWN
BACKGROUND

wud really appreciate it if u guys let me know if it's nice or not.
=3
heh heh

learning how to draw more.
Slowly.
it's been my interest all along.
finally did my 1st pict on may 17th !

anyone can help me host mp3 songs ?

PLEASE TAG !!!

RAWR i'm sick... i mean really sick as in having terrible cough and flu..
:sigh:

posted at 1:16 PM

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

.....
Some people just move on that fast.
so fast Might have new 1 already.
perhaps thats the reason.
.....
wateva.
totally disappointed in such character.
forget it.
.....
on da fone till 2-3am.
when it all used to be 11pm.
home at 12-2am
when it used to be 10pm.
going out everyday
when it used to be seldom.
.....
i just cant understand people sometimes.
wo kan chuo le ni.

posted at 9:47 AM

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Had a drive Driven
by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish youd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angels heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin proof of what love is about

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
Itll never feel the same
But we had some good times

Guess its sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin proof of what love is about…

-Dreamz FM. should i stay.

wonderful song. i'm addicted to this song as well..
i've got a link here if u wanna d/l this song.
brings back memories.
sigh...
guess i've really gotta move on..........

download it
>>HERE<<

well.. i can just say that school is slowly getting better.
millimeter by millimeter..
Lil by lil...
slowly...
Maybe time will heal it all.. (like wat u used to say)

school #
Life #
Church...
(# = covered in this post)

Church stuff..
it's something that has been in the back of my mind.
HAUNTING me from time to time.
i wanna learn more bout the bible(serious)
i wanna live a meaningful life.
i Was serious in wanting to learn more about it..

but.........

membership of a cellgroup is being on the line...
just because of having dyed hair
and a ear hole ?

i've asked people in sch.
non christians
they don think that
dyed hair = ah beng
or
makes one look more
UNHOLY thats simply dumb
to sterotype dyed hair to ah bengs.

ear holes are for fashion.
who has them for looking like ah bengs ?
i'm sure everyone wants to look fashionable.
EVEN YOU GUYS.

i cant blame u if u just want to be fashionable in your own sense.
stick out of another person's fashion sense.

2 reasons = no membership.
wat do u guys think about this ?
it's no wonder the congregation aint growing largely like other churches
u just don give people the urge or interest to learn more about God.
because u REJECT people.

u're making people stray from God cos of ur sensitiviness
or
YOUR STANDARD OF HOLINESS.
maybe thats why all ur targets are on young and innocent people who are not old and mature enuf to have their own stand of things.
u're like the communist.
PROPAGANDA.
making the young ones STAY away from the non christians.
telling them not to be like non christians.

having a ear hole or/and dyed hair doesnt make 1 UNHOLIER.
it's the inside that counts. thats what u all have been teaching it right ?
SO wheres the application to that in u judging ppl in terms of looks ?
Wake up okay...
don just talk and don do actions.

wanna judge. i judge u all too.
You all buy more games and electronic products den a NORMAL person
I AM JUDGING ON UR BEHAVIOUR THAT U ARE SPLURGING ON UNNECESSARY STUFFS TOO..
i'm not wrong in thinking like that wat.
i'm right i'm right..... (*Slaps myself on the dead*)
c'mon man.

put urself in my shoes.
dumbasses.
if u can think of those
i can think of those too.

When i wanna start anew.
i've clarified things with someone.
and ready to start again over anew.
BUT... you guys come judging and giving ur !@#$-ing comments all over again
i aint really interested anymore.

to JS:
i've tried..
i hope u could tell.
they've control over the church.
so i've got no say.
so theres no need for u to be troubled over me and this matter

i'll find the answers
myself
in the bible
and my way.

i'm voiced my anger..
the YOU or YOU GUYS in this post isnt directed to anyone...
READ AGAIN.
this isnt DIRECTED TO anyone.
if i hear any rumours bout me backstabbing or shooting at anyone.
be sure that i'll F*** you up.

i've had enough of people judging.

Comments ppl? talk bout it in the tag.
i just wanna see how many ppl shares the same point of view.

i maybe wrong i maybe right.
It DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE.
get it clear.

posted at 8:07 AM

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Friday, May 05, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM !!!

haha. today is my mom's birthday.
guess wat. in the morning my lil bro and i decided to buy a cake for her.
and i suggested giving her a spa treatment.
but we talked bout that around 10am.

i had class at 11. so ya..
1st class of the day was computer lessons..
haha. went to play with computer in sch..
i saw a familiar gal !
but.... wateva.
there was a break during comupter lesson.
zhen wei gave me the msn @ of that gal's friend.
LOl..
added her lor.
but didnt talk much.
aint interested anyway.

after class went for lunch lar. as usual left class with my group of guys.
but after that 1 by 1 they all ps me.
lol. 2 go meet gal. the other 2 go smoke... left with me and nich.
went to eat at AS canteen.
boring.

after lunch had 4 hrs straight of class.
lol during the 4 hr class was a particular break.
followed clar, zw, dan to go for break. they wanted to smoke.
sooo.. i followed. went to some stair case
opened a door. entered that staircase.
i closed the door behind me.

and guess wat.
after they smoked.
wanna go back
THE DAMN DOOR IS LOCKED !!
called for help !! called classmates.
we stayed at the door. waiting for rescue.
den A knock came on the door.

and an unfamilar voice rang..
BOY !!! are u inside ?!
Who are you ?
wats ur name...
WAts ur name arh ?! (in a deep man's voice)

thinking it was a lecturer..
WTH... we ALL PANICked and RAN !!! LOL
ran down the stairs. all the wat to the 1st floor.
haha..

den went back to class say that i went to shit blah blah blah..
LOL den found out that it was NICHOLAS PANG WHO IMITATED THA FREAKING VOICE.
LOl beat him up.. haha.
just messing only lar.

had a great time in class. laughter and all. not thinking or remembering about the sadness.
=( ahh shant talk bout it

den after sch went home. it's my mom's bday.
ok rmb the cake i was talking about ?
my lil had tuition so my mom fetched him to tuition.
when my lil bro tution ended, mom picked him up.
telling him that SHE BOUGHT A SWENSENS CAKE FOR HERSELF..
cos she tot that we wont buy anythign for her.
LOL. my bro kept quiet. haha
when she came home... she showed the cake to me.
and i laughed. she was counting the candles like
' 1,2,3,4,5big 1 small'
(i know i aint supposed to say how old a woman is. but i'm just refering to the candles right )

it was like so funny and cute lar.
5 mins later. my older bro who went to collect the cake WE bought(me and lil bro)
SHE WAS LIKE SHOCKED !! she tot we wont buy cake for her.
BUT WE DID !! WAHAHAHA....

so ya.. we ended up with 2 cakes. 1 cheesecake and 1 ice cream cake...
WOW right ? my mom with 2 cakes..
decided to give 1 cake to my ah ma for mothers day. LOL wat an idea.

S00o.. sang bday song. took picts and stuff..
haha.. laugh like hell today. damn fun.
2 cakes. fun mom. getting stucked at staircase.
LOl wat a nice day.
thinking bout it makes me
smirk slightly.

feeling happy and satisfied today.

Love u cute mom ! HAHAa..
dad's bday is on the 13th this month.. LOL
lets see what will happen on that day.

my aunt bought a printer/scanner for my mom.
she doesnt need it soo
it's MINE !!!
u guys will see my own art in this blog soon. haha.

THANKS !!!
YAHOOOO !!!
wat a fun day. i'm tired now.
i'm contented for today.
*Snore.....*zzzZzZZzzZz

posted at 11:47 PM

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

Wow. wat a long and tiring day.
went to sch at 9. whee mom fetched me to school again !
Thanks mom.

after that 4 hours straight of classes.
tough man. there's breaks in between. thankful.

after that went for a 1 hr lunch. den got CDS tutorial.
LAW.. i'm gonna be a lawer..wahaha..
Law lessons are fun man.. relaxed also.

after that came home to sleep and went to church for
bible study.
after that walked home.
saw erm... ros... and fatin
on the way home.
didnt talk or communicate with them.
sorry.. i know i've changed.

i've got lotsa questions..
1 big 1...

1 ) WHY DO PPL ALWAYS JUDGE BASED ON THE APPEARANCE OF ANOTHER PERSON ??
-- i know all u does that. i'm guilty as well..
2) DOES DYED HAIR + PIERCED EAR + WEARIN NICE CLOTHES
=
ah bengs ? or bad ppl ?

please. whoever came up with this thinkin or sterotyping.
change ur freaking mind and go for a brainwash with JIF(detergent).
this post aint directed to anyone.
get it.

-pissed for being judged.

posted at 11:31 PM

i just don understand how ppl can change so suddenly.
perhaps i didnt notice b4.

does talking on the fone with ppl till 12+ EVERY nite give happiness ?
or does it mean that that person has already moved on ?

does 'ONLY A FRIEND' means nothing will happen ?
or is it just a test of trust ?

Does going out with Friends ALL THE TIME means 'only friends' ?
perhaps.
but till for early afternoon till late at night or middle of the night den go home ?
that weird.

if it's only a friend. den he/she shud be treated like only a friend right ?
and not like someone closer.
am i right ?

bah i dun understand.
Guys...
Girls...

maybe they arent meant to understand each other.
1 wants to have control
the other wants to have freedom.
i'm sure this happens to u guys too.
in the end.
there's war.

I'm sure. perhaps thats wat happiness is all about. doing the things u wanna do most.
and just having the other half is just a burden that forbids one to do the things u wanna do most.
Stay happy.

it's your own life anyways.....

these few days.
i've finally realised that i'm not really that alone.
people from my secondary sch, primary sch, poly,
friends that are close or not that close.
talked to me unexpectedly.
cheering me up.
comforting me.
Guess i aint alone.
guess ppl out there really care for me.
except i was oblivious to all those.

how childish i've been.
to be living in my own world.
being such a spoilt brat.

now's the time to grow up.
now's the time to learn.
now's the time to know that life ahead is still beautiful. =D

thanks for all ur encouragement guys.
seriously. thanks.
it's time i awoken from being such a spoilt childish brat.

My... this is a LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG post eh.?
hope u guys really read it.
and TAGGED.

it's nice to hear encouragements and comments from readers of ur own blog.
u'll understand if u have a blog too.. ;)
heh.

Good luck guys.

posted at 7:42 AM

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
-iMu.0205

happy bday to jia hui too.

hope u liked my prezzie.
want u back.
does please work anymore ?

anyway long day in sch. tiring day.
met bendy for dinner and law lesson.

after that made my way home myself.
nv felt so lonely b4..
sigh. does everyone feels the same as me at some point of their life ?
do u guys feel that u're lonely or unaccepted ?
or izit only me ?

perhaps i need more friends. not just hi-bye friends.
start studying hard ba.
time will pass fast right !?
wahaha !

ICP OSH UO1 EM2 LAW....
seems easy ah ?
try to get good grades this sem ba.

GOOD LUCK FOR PPL TAKING EXAMS...
=(

posted at 10:31 PM

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Monday, May 01, 2006

Happy Birthday 0205.
stay happy with whoever or whatever u are doing.
take great care of yourself.
thanks for visiting me at the hospital.
and ur memories.
Bye bye....

posted at 10:53 PM

why did u hafta go...
i miss you soo...

sigh. may 2... coming soon.
i've already bought the things.
hope that it'll come true.
hope to see you.
thats my only reason i can use to see you.

i called ur home. u aint home.
have i really lost all trust in you ?
or have i not even had any from the start to begin ?
sarang hae yo..
can the past be revived again ?

are you waiting for me to take action or
have u moved on ?

question for ppl who reads my blog.
do guys or girls move on faster ?

-personally. i haven and i cant bring myself to move on.
-wat a loser eh ?
was nv good at doing anything anyway.

all da pictures, all the times, all the happiness....
thanks alot for them...
i wont ever forget them.

1st person i ever got close with.
1st person that i gave everything to.
1st person that parted with me.
1st person that made my heart bleed

Oohh.. Please stop all these pain and stains
For i don wanna have all these feelings,
Stop me from getting anymore worriedness
Alone in the world, sadness
Laden with a burden.
Oohh. Come back and stop gimme some loving.

don know wat crap i was writing.
wateva.

anyways.
hard time now.

are we really of unequal yoke ?
den if we are why did we even manage to get together.
Questions.Regrets.Love.Hatred.Sadness.Happiness.
Painfulness.Loneliness.Comfort.Answers.

I need and have all of those...............................................................

0205-iMu
0512-wants you.

posted at 12:31 AM